I started this blog in Matthew’s memory, and I continue to write it in his honor, so I feel I must post something on his first birthday, but to post much of anything feels disingenuous, because my heart is so heavy, and I lack the words at the moment.
Mark and I took the day off, so we’ll do some things to remember Matthew and reflect on our time with him, this day last year, and the twelve months that followed.
I’m sure I’ll come up with lots of words later, but for now, it seems, all I can say is…
We love him. We love him. We love him.
We miss him. We miss him. We miss him.
Over and over again.
Thank you to everyone who has commented, emailed, texted, called, sent a card, and/or is holding space in their heart for Matthew today. ❤
chickydoodles 
😦 I’m so sorry for your loss.
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Just thinking about you so much today. I’m going to light a candle for him tonight.
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Thinking of your family, and especially precious Matthew today. I know he is so proud of how you’re helping so many people with your blog. I am literally reading from the beginning (again) b/c you capture how we all feel so well. Big hugs!
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((Hugs)) again my sweet friend 💙
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Sending so much love your way! ❤️
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Holding Matthew, Mark and you in my heart today. I love you and I miss you are often the only words I can put together when my heart is overwhelmed by missing Jackson. ❤
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Sending you big hugs and warm wishes. My thoughts are of you, Mark and Matthew on this overwhelming day.
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Remembering Matthew
His life made an impact on many people.
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Thinking of you and your family, sending a huge hug xxx
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Been thinking of you all day. You are always in my prayers. I love you.
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Thinking of Matthew today and forever. Love you four so much. 💙
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All afternoon I’ve been thinking how perfect the drenching rain feels, like even the earth itself is grieving with you 💙
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Thinking of you, Chrissie, and Mark and Matthew today. I wish I had words that could touch this grief. Sending love your way and thinking of you always.
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You are a true inspiration for sharing your story. Sending prayers your way.
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Thinking of you all today and holding space for Matthew.
Thank you for sharing him with us. As I have told you before, he is making an impact on many people. ❤
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Have been thinking of you, Mark and Matthew today. We love you so much.
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Happy Birthday sweet Matthew. You are so loved and missed by many. Thinking of all of you today Christine. 💕
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So many hugs and love. Thinking of all of you today. ❤ ❤
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You’ve all been in my thoughts, mama! Sending you hugs and love! ❤
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I know my pain doesn’t even compare, I miscarried our first at 14 weeks, having heard his/her heartbeat at 10 weeks. My due date was June 26th , and when that day came, I was so heavy with grief and just sad. Wishing you the next year full of blessings!
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Thinking of you all. Matthew’s life has had such an impact and continues to help many of us through your blog. I relate to everything you write in his honour and I’m grateful for you and for Matthew. xxx
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Happy birthday Matthew. There aren’t sufficient words to express my deep sadness for your loss once again. Thinking of your precious boy.
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You are brave and strong. Above all you are loved. My prayers are always with you.
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