Today we went shopping for an SUV. My large, purple four door luxury Hyundai sedan has low door clearance, so I basically have to toss Joel into his car seat through a tiny opening, and he doesn’t like it, so we kind of want a new vehicle. (If you’re worried Joel might become spoiled, I can assure you that your concerns are valid.) Continue reading
new normal
High/low
I plan to write about how we spent Matthew’s birthday later, but it’s been a rollercoaster of a week, so for now I’m going to pretend I’m a teenage boy who generally only provides one word answers to questions and possesses the personality of a dead fish, and my parents are trying to drag some information out of me at the dinner table via the “high/low” conversation starter game, and then it all comes spewing out because there actually are so many highs (maybe) and lows beneath the surface. Continue reading
South Carolina vacay

We just returned from four days in Hilton Head, South Carolina (Westin Resort) – probably our last opportunity to travel any significant distance for a while because I’m (justifiably) paranoid. Mark’s parents joined us for the trip. And, to be fair, we also invited my parents, but they declined our invitation because they’d “rather stay home with their dogs.” And I’m not sure what this says about my parents or about us. (Though, in full disclosure, unfortunately, one of their dogs is dying, which royally sucks and renders their decision more reasonable.) Continue reading
Right where I am; 8 months later

Shortly after Matthew died I stumbled upon a baby loss mom blog (last updated in 2014) I found particularly memorable for its 2011 project, “Right where I am.” The idea was that this blogger would choose a day to write about where she was with her grief in a given moment, call others to do the same, and then compile the responses for all to browse. Continue reading
I’m Naked & Afraid
Naked & Afraid – a most appropriate metaphor for my life. Also, perhaps, the most appropriately named show in the history of television. Continue reading
Medusa status – fleeing the office party
Glowinthewoods, a website for bereaved parents, refers to us baby loss moms as “medusas”. I didn’t get it at first (I’m not well versed in Greek mythology), but now I do. Continue reading
Storage Wars
So this past Monday, I journeyed around the city attending Public Storage auctions. That’s right – my very own version of Storage Wars. Continue reading